Rough Week but the Sun is still Shining

This week (starting from saturday) hands down was one of the worst I have experienced in a while yet I still smile I had a bad flare up with the illness. It got to the point where I could not walk well without assistance and my left side of my body was completely weak and numb. Despite this, I know I still have it alot better than many. As I sat in my Neurologist office waiting to be called on I saw many with neurological disorders whom were in wheel chairs and all I could do is say Lord have Mercy and Thank you.


So to help with the flare up I had to take 3 doses of steroids YIKES!!!!!! today meaning 12/16 will be my third day of treatment and I feel a difference already. I am still walking a little slow however I can do it on my own . the burning in my arms and legs has stopped, and I have gain strength in my left side so I’m good. The steroids are given through an IV fusion and it takes about an hour. Thank goodness my mother (who is retired) was there with me so I didn’t go through this alone. Stevey was at work so its great to have had the next closest person to me there. My blood is getting tested as well, and alot of test are being done as we speak to see if the antibodies in my system is really taking in the disease modifying drug (Avonex) that I have been on for over a year. If it comes back that it’s not receiving well then that’s like saying that I’m not taking any therapy for it at all good news is that there are other alternatives so we shall see!

I also signed up to participate in a study in New York that is geared towards African-Americans with MS. See in the past Multiple Sclerosis was mostly common in Caucasian females but now it has expanded to Men and other races. Scientists believe that the cognitions and progression of the disease may be worst in African-Americans so with that said I am all for learning and participating.

Which is leading me to the next step. I decided that I want to get more active in the research/giving back/ advocacy in the MS movement. I had a blog which I created when I first was diagnosed but I barely blog there I don’t know why I havent but I plan to change that. I think I may delete and start from scratch. I just feel that with positivity, psychology background, wanting to spread awareness will really be fulfilling Pray for me yall! lol

Later beauties

When will the cycle stop?

Ladies and Gents there are alot of things that just need to stop. The way we view ourselves, the nonsense that we place so much value in and the way we overall treat each other. This cycle that is taking place is the destruction of marriages, relationships and friendships. When will it end? When u say enough is enough!

Ladies,
First off the we need to remember the following: YOU MUST LOVE AND RESPECT YOURSELF BEFORE SOMEONE ELSE CAN LOVE AND RESPECT YOU.
Before you can offer yourself to anyone/anything you have to know You and what you are all about. Your significant other can not save you from everything that happens to you. Yes its great the have support from your significant other however the important factor is..SUPPORT. Ladies we have to help ourselves first so that we can put our 100% into anything.
Ladies we need to also stop putting all the blame on the fellas. Yes alot of guys nowadays are triflin and plain ignorant but...we deal with it. Yes we all can go on and on about guys aint thise and men are all the same..well they are all the same because we put up with the same shit. In relationships you will have to push and pull sometimes and make sacrifices, but ladies if your significant other is not even meeting you half way in the relationship, u have to put a stop to it. Some may question why is that ladies give their all and always end up coming last in their relationship? Answer is because you allow it to be that way. We go out our way to meet the needs of others all the time. From makeup, hairstyles, clothing, professions and our thought process we do it for others. We will began to do things for ourselves when we accept our selves and take in responsibility. Bottom line ladies we have our Own Problems and we have to find our inner being and love it so much that we can fix our issues and not rely on that from somebody else. Yes this may be easier said than done but its a virtue...A virtue we all should be willing to practice. Just think, when was the last time you made an important decision and it was truthfully satisfying to yourself first before anyone else? or when was the last time you were so effed up in the head and you almost gave up until your significant other patted your head and assured you that you would be ok? Think about it.

Gents,
Where do I start...Please get it together. In history, boys went thru a journey in order to become a man. It seems as if that journey is now becoming a player, drug dealer or baby maker....Thats a problem. It takes a real man to know how to love and respect women, it takes a real man to get a job or two to support himself or his family, it takes a real man to be a father to his children, see the difference? Guys I know its not easy growing up into this crazy world but you have to make the best out of everything. Guys, you need to set the example in all that you do. From working hard on a job, to treating a woman like she should be treated, to being a father. Would you believe that studies have shown that children are less likely to become delinquent with the role of a male figure in a child's life? Or just the importance of family dinner for a child? Now that is not always the men fault, I know the ladies have a factor in that too but that just amazes me. Here is something to think about..When was the last time that you didnt follow a crowd or did what your homies from the hood did? When was the last time you opened a door for your woman or hold groceries for a woman who looks like she is about to tobble over? or at least offer? or how about when was the last time the fathers out there read their son/daughter a bed time story and tucked them to sleep? think about it

Ladies and Gents that is just a few of things that is always on mind. I hope maybe one person thinks about this and try to live their life a little better. Just remember, Love yourself, Respect yourself and treat others like you want to be treated.
one love
Nic

Do you take Responsibility?

Something that people need to practice is taking their own responsibility...we tend to look to others to solve our problems or we blame others for our actions when in reality, we need to fix ourselves before fixing anything else.

I mean nothing is wrong with seeking support from family, friends, lovers etc...however they can only hold your hand but so much, you have to rise up to your own challenges and learn to accept and deal with them. Any issues or problems that we have, we have to be first to say I want to change or I don't want to live this way any more first before telling someone to help us.
Life is about having experiences not regrets, we have to learn from them and evaluate how our life is going to be different because of the experience and continue to live. You only have one life and we should want to make the best of it. Life is entirely too short to walk around with anger in your system...do you really want to die mad? or have the ones that love you remember you as being depressed or angry? I hope the answer is no.

so why not today make change in ur life...Do something positive or make posititve actions..and in the near future look at yourself first before putting blame on anything or anyone else for your dilemas...
one love

Go shorty... ITS Ya Birthday!!

LUCKY 23, LUCKY 23 hehe thats ME!!!!

Thank the Lord I got to see another year of birth.... So Blessed So blessed~~~~~