you dont have control..God does

Realization
Sometimes we are up against a wall when we finally have realization. We realize that we are not in control of anything..God is control.

I have alot on my mind right now but the most important thing I do believe is that God works things in mysterious ways and I need to follow His Lead. Because when I jumped and made choices on my own, it brought sleepless nights and a heavy heart. God wants us to be happy and to realized that without Him we are NOTHING..
I am still believing in my dreams, I am still hanging on to his Grace..I know its in God time where everything is going to be in my favor. I just have to keep the faith and let go & Let God in!!!!

Feeling a void

I have to pray because the feelings that I am having is making my heart so heavy. I am blessed to have a job especially when we are in a recession and people are getting fired left and right. Am I really being an idealist to think that a career should be fulfilling? or enjoyable? Not to say what I'm doing isnt enjoyable but its adding alot of stress for me. I am turning into those people who takes their job home. I cant allow my life to become that..I will continue to do my best regardless. All of my coworkers are telling me how well I'm doing but I don't feel it. I dont feel excited. but you can't keep a good woman down because I know that everything will happen according to God's plan. And with God on my side I can do all things!

A quote I am believing to be true

"A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ, that a man would have to go through HIM to find her" Unknown (unless someone can tell me where its from :D, I would appreciate that)

I love this quote because in my view it's so true. In service today, one of the members from my church proposed to his girlfriend. It was very touching and my pastor blessed the ring before he placed it on her finger. My pastor made a joke saying something along the lines of "if he loves u that much he would put a ring on it" then all the ladies were like "yep yep" "thats right" and doing the beyonce ring on it dance lol. fun times but true.

Pastor also made a comment about shacking up. I mean I dont care if others do it however the more and more I think about it. I want to be at least engaged about to get married in a month or few weeks when living with my honey. With my standards, I want to marry a God fearing man, period. I need to know that if things go wrong, I have a spouse that wont just throw in the towel or run away, but a spouse that will get down on his knees and pray with me. I know I have found that person which is a blessing, I hope and pray others feel the importance of faith and spirituality in a marriage because "A family that prays together will stay together"...THE TRUTH.
peace
Nicole Cherise

GOT THAT PHONE CALL

So this morning I got a phone call...

I GOT A JOB!! I am so happy and God is soooo good. and this is my blessing set for me according to God's plan. I am soo happy and if anyone pays attention to my posts, u will know that the job situation has been crazy for me. however my wonderful bf, friends and family assured me that, I was not forgotten and I would be ok..thanks for all the support!

Happiness

After prayer, meditation and soul healing...I must say that I am truly happy. I have learned that I have to accept life's curve balls and obstacles. I can no longer be stuck trying to figure out the intentions of others. I mean so called friends who dont even know the meaning of a real friendship.. Selfish characters, people who smile in my face one day and the next back stabbing. I really learned to accept things for what they are and I accept people for who they are.
I know that my purpose in life is not to be perfect or to be a healer for everyone but to be a listener; someone you can speak to and not worry about me being judgemental towards your feelings or actions; a person who has courage; a person who is empathetic.
I am naturally loyal, kind, patient and sincere. For you to know me, you will love me lol but its true. If I did run into someone who didnt care for me, it was simply because they didnt know me or was envious of me. I'm just at a place right now where I am really feeling myself...shoot I'm about to have my master's degree at 23..I can tute my own horn (toot toot) lol.
Most importantly, I am so happy because God has been so good to me.. I am blessed every day at every moment..I think about where I have come from mentally and physically and all I can do is be thankful. I am also blessed to have a loving family, a wonderful boyfriend who is my bestfriend and sisters that are bestfriends. The older I get my circle becomes a little smaller I used to question why?... which I shouldnt have because God works everything out for a reason and keeps the real loved ones besides me and the devils in disguise far away. I am so thankful to just LIVE!
I am happy and I will remain faithful and true to God and to myself.
wow...this really feels good ♥