Tuesday, December 2, 2008


After prayer, meditation and soul healing...I must say that I am truly happy. I have learned that I have to accept life's curve balls and obstacles. I can no longer be stuck trying to figure out the intentions of others. I mean so called friends who dont even know the meaning of a real friendship.. Selfish characters, people who smile in my face one day and the next back stabbing. I really learned to accept things for what they are and I accept people for who they are.
I know that my purpose in life is not to be perfect or to be a healer for everyone but to be a listener; someone you can speak to and not worry about me being judgemental towards your feelings or actions; a person who has courage; a person who is empathetic.
I am naturally loyal, kind, patient and sincere. For you to know me, you will love me lol but its true. If I did run into someone who didnt care for me, it was simply because they didnt know me or was envious of me. I'm just at a place right now where I am really feeling myself...shoot I'm about to have my master's degree at 23..I can tute my own horn (toot toot) lol.
Most importantly, I am so happy because God has been so good to me.. I am blessed every day at every moment..I think about where I have come from mentally and physically and all I can do is be thankful. I am also blessed to have a loving family, a wonderful boyfriend who is my bestfriend and sisters that are bestfriends. The older I get my circle becomes a little smaller I used to question why?... which I shouldnt have because God works everything out for a reason and keeps the real loved ones besides me and the devils in disguise far away. I am so thankful to just LIVE!
I am happy and I will remain faithful and true to God and to myself.
wow...this really feels good ♥

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Keeping my head up

So, School is almost done and I am so ready for it to be...
I just realized that I have been in school ever since I was 3 years old...hmmmm 20 years :D lol but it is time for a lil break. I do plan to go back for my doctorate degree but not until after I start to work in my field. So I'm just gonna keep my head up and keeping the faith. God has a plan in store for me and I am just letting HIS Will be Done...

So, the holidays are coming around. I am very excited for thanksgiving and christmas. I'm excited!!!woo hooo

Friday, November 7, 2008

Yes I'm hype with the photos

more pics of the First Family

I know...I am the worst but I am sooooo HAPPY!

Yes alot of has happened since the last time I posted a blog...

I believe that America needed a new direction. No I do not believe that all of our problems will be solved over nite or in one term. No matter the presidential choice He would have alot of work to do, to even get us in the right direction. I love the fact that Barack Obama has the courage to want to lead our country especially in the worst times. He gives us hope...
I can tell my future son that he CAN be President because Barack Obama has made history of being the first. I can also say that I am happy that He has a beautiful wife, Michelle my FIRST LADY and gorgeous daughters :D. This election has gone thru so much and I am just happy that God has blessed me to be able to see it. Lastly, President Obama is also a role model of young men who have come from a fatherless homesetting. Ladies you can now say " Yes I am a single mother but my son can be President!"
The grace of God is getting us thru and With OUR NEW PRESIDENT we cant go wrong.

Monday, October 13, 2008


So be gone so long but I'm still here lol..

So one of my bff's got married the fourth!! I am so happy for her :D

I have alot of goals that I want to accomplish financially, physically, mentally and spiritually :D yep I know.

Most important thing right now is to SAVE SAVE SAVE and continue on the Job hunt :D. Trying not to complain and just Let God handle all of my worries :D

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Cheers to us!

Its been a while since I have writtin in my blog but Im back :D

So september 26th was my 8th year anni with my hunny. I am so blessed yall to have a wonderful person in my life. He means so much to me and I hold him dear. We had a great weekend together despite me catching a cold (yuck!) it was all good.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Black women at the bottom?

So I have had multiple conversations about where black women stand in the dating game these days and for some reason our "Brothers" are not going for them or just giving up. Now I have no problem interacial dating because its none of my business however I do have a strong passion of disgust when I hear Men say they would never date a black woman or that they are giving up on the Sistas" Thats som ole bull ish if u ask me... ( i know ladies say that dumb ish too but I'm not talkin about the ladies right now)
It reminds of me of one of my favorite jill scott song thats one her 3rd album where she is singin about how would black men feel if we (black women) were gone? No mama, no daughter, no sisters, no grandma no one that looks like you....
Its so true these backward ass negroes prolly think that would be a good thing... mostly because they lost respect for black women.
Our society is sooo brainwashed it's BEYOND SAD..... its like blacks dont like blacks anymore.... wtf? I cant take it. I mean I love being black and I love my black people the good and the bad. But I cant stand the self hatred we are having towards one another. its like "if its black its wack" ? Thats bull shit and negroes need to wake up!

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Ummm why are peeps so negative nowadays?

So I was talking to a gurlie of mine and she spoke of how being with one person is unrealistic and UN natural. I disagree. I mean I do understand that not everyone wants to be in a committed relationship. However If you do believe that you will marry one day how is it possible to feel so strongly about this topic?

I do believe that there is NO perfect relationship however if people are happy and want to commit themselves to someone, it is possible for them to have a wonderful relationship. I do believe that alot of people make decisions based on there past relationships and even childhood but damn don't try to rain on my parade ya feel me? I am happy with my boyfriend. No everyday is not always peaches and cream but we have grown so much in the past (soon to be 8) years. I would not replace or change anything for the world.

the first question people ask about my relationship..." how does he still give you butterflies after soo many years?" Easy...God doesnt make mistakes and God is apart our relationship.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Hate Threats?


Damn, fools hate this man sooo much! However I am not surprised. Even though I know many people were born with hate in their blood It still amazes me how much people would love to kill another human being or even plotting to kill another human being. But please believe Judgement day will come for those and they will get whats coming to them....

Monday, August 25, 2008

My future first lady


Monday, August 18, 2008

only one lover... thats not a crime

Its so funny to me how people can say soo much about ur business. For example I remember a while ago someone asked me how can I only been with one person and want to keep it that way? uh easy its my choice. I choose to want my boyfriend to be my First, my last and my only. Point blank what is so hard about that? Its like ok I understand the saying of "if u only have had chocolate icecream how do u know that u wont like vanilla or strawberry?" uhhhh I'm very happy and satisfied with my chocolate flavor and dont want to experiment else where PERIOD!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

A healingin my soul

When I heard Kelly Price sing this song I was like hmmm what is she going thru or what is she talking about. Now I kinda kno....

I mean its not to say that I am not happy, I AM a happy person. its just that sometimes I feel like my spirits gets down. I know when times get like this I just pray about everything.
I'm at a point in my life where I'm thinking outside of the box and slowly but surely seeing the "Big" picture or Reality of things. Life is too short to not do something with urself worth substance. I see alot of people from my generation doing the same silly ass stuff they did when we were in high school and they are content with that. I mean truth be told its "their" thing but not mine.

I am a nice and outgoing person and I dont need a crowd to stand out...Being me is all I need. I just gotta keep praying and keep God first and I know I will feel 100% better and see all things with clear vision.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

R.I.P Isaac Hayes

Wow another falling soldier. Reports say that his family found him unconscious next to a treadmil. and he was later pronounced dead an hour later at a hospital in memphis....
My prayers goes out to the family of Isaac Hayes...R.I.P Isaac

My Hunny

So a good pal of me was nice enough to go with me in Manhatten to watch my hunny participate in a music contest this past thursday night. I was so happy to see him do his thing on stage. I am really proud of him. I feel that God has blessed him with a gift and long as God is first he can do many things with a future music career.

R.I.P Bernie Mac

When my mom told me the news about Bernie Mac, I thought she made a mistake. I wasn't even aware of him being in the hospital. But I do believe in life, everything happens for a reason and Bernie Mac has touched the lives of many and he always had me cracking up laughing :D . He no longer has to stuffer and is in a better place....R.I.P Bernie Mac

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

the thunderstorms

I gotta get thru them.....

I'm in the dark right now and I know God is gonna lead me to the light. I cant give up, I gotta keep trying.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Its been a while

still no word on jobs... and I understand that stuff is crazy right now with the economy but I'm not giving up....

I feel like a broken record right now but I know something will come up when I really NEED it.

ummmm School is getting ready to start. this is my last semester in my master's program and I am thinking of what I want to do afterwards.....

Im just soo sad at times because there are sooo many things I want to do and I just cant because of funds. I dont want to be rich, I just want to be comfortable and better with my finances.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

lucky 23 events

Well the darlin boyfriend made me feel sooo special this lucky 23rd bday. Dinner at Cheesecakefactory, I never been there before...the food was pretty good and I had my first mojito! it was a pineapple one but it was great tho :D

That saturday we went on a boat ride and I had a blast.

and Lastly Sunday he paid for me to have a photo shoot. I was in dance school for 7 years and tooking modelling classes for 5. I enjoyed modelling however because of my heart I kinda kept it on a backburner. I always talk about being a print model so I guess he figured I can always have some photos to have just in case I want to persue modelling. I soo heart that man!

I posted some but for any of my lovely readers more of my pics are on my fotki page

Umm still no word on jobs! but I'm keeping my head up and I'm still letting God take care of it.


Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Go shorty... ITS Ya Birthday!!

LUCKY 23, LUCKY 23 hehe thats ME!!!!

Thank the Lord I got to see another year of birth.... So Blessed So blessed~~~~~

Monday, July 21, 2008


Well life is all about lessons....

Sometimes you have to think "how will you learn your lessons?"

Will you learn from others and their advice OR will you learn lessons from LIFE???

I am choosing to learn lessons thru advice of others I hold dear to me. Time and time I find myself not listening the voices of wisdom .... but now I will. Because when you learn your lessons from life, it's more than likely not going to be pretty or easy. I dont want to suffer or struggle when I can plan to be a success like my ancestors would have wanted me to. I refuse to let myself go and become a hot ass mess just because that is what society wants me to do.... I will succeed and prosper and because of this, I will listen to the wise and guide my life accordingly.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008


How can I create a list of favorite bloggers on my website???

Sunday, July 13, 2008


Its sooo hot but I love the weather. I get to wear my shorts and mini skirts so Im not complaining. When I wash my hair its ok for it to still be wet because it can cool me down in this heat! lol.
Hair talk: Well I have been using the curls line alot. when I first decided to wear my hair natural, I purchased the whipped cream and loved it. but since I found one of the best stores, Rickeys I purchased more...
hmmmm lets see whats else is going on............

I want some more pumps but we shall see.....

I like these nine west shoes alot and the deep purple is hot too $89
hmmmmmm we shall see. I need more funds first!!! :D

Friday, July 11, 2008

Naturally Me

I love having natural hair..... I love being able to do my own thing and not worry about pleasing anyone else but myself. I decided that harsh chemicals are not necessary for me to have straight hair. If it were that serious then I can just flat iron or press my hair to achieve a straight look. People day by ask me how did I just give up on relaxers? well it was easy....I just let it go!

Now even coming near my two year anniversary of having natural hair. I am still trying to find my holy grail products and complete routine. By August 15th (2 years) I will have it down pact :D.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

I love shoes

So I have an interview on Tuesday (pray for me!!!)

So I decided to buy some shoes ....

So I got a pair of steve madden peep toe pumps similiar to yellow pair. mine are black patten leather and on the sides near my pinky toe it's clear... Love them!!!

and I got these chinese laundry sandles these are the exact pair. I love yellow and I was excited that the store had my size

Sunday, June 22, 2008

The Bigger your enemie is the Harder they fall

That was basically the message I received in church today. I dont have enemies however I love everyone even if they have ways about them that are not cool. I guess my enemies would be someone trying to still my joy from me or trying to block me from obtaining my goals. Yes people may try to do this...but God always has something planned just for you. so people can try to set a block in my path but not a block on God's Blessings to me.....

Nothing else really new just taking it one day at a time.

I have a new found love Organix coconut milk conditioner.... Thanks Urban Curlz!!!!

Im really big on conditioner and I will say that this company is really on the money with their conditioners 5 stars!!!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

recap till now

My parents just celebrated their 37th anni on june 12th and daddy's 66th bday was the 13th . geesh this man had a weekend full of gifts.

Still no word on Jobs but I am still praying and believing....

The beau and friends are all great so that keeps a smile on my face....

I am very fascinated with Miss Jessies curly pudding. before I just had it but I finally decided to use my denman brush to rake the product thru on soaking wet hair and I must say its POPPIN!!! I love it now for my hair, I always like the scent but now since it gives m nice hold and moisture to my curls/coilz I am a happy camper!

There are alot of fashion items I am thinking about... will post some thoughts later

Blog next time.... thanks for stoppin thru peeps

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

so what now?

Um.... I'm getting so aggravated that I havent had a call back yet with jobs. I will keep praying and hopefully God will lead me in the right direction. However I am determine to continue my hard work. I need more money so I can save to get my own place and so I can start paying back some student loans...we shall see.

Friday, May 23, 2008

Lover is MIA

Well literally, My beau is in Miami with his friends and I miss him already. When I get a new gig I promise myself that I will have alot of weekend getaways. So he will be back on monday but this does give me sometime to have to myself so its all good.

So I purchased some shorts from express( a fushia pair and olive green pair), a Polo for my mom and I( I purchased a black polo with fushia logo and My mom has grey with a blue logo) and a silk shirt( I cant find pics of the silk blouse on line).
I cant wait to wear them...and I can't wait for the summer weather :D My bday is in July and I'm gettin excited just thinking about it. Yep exactly two months away :D
Check out the website www.expressfashion.com

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Ladies listen up!

Time and time I tune to the situations and struggles that our sisters are going thru and I feel the need to write a blog about it. One of the major struggles that we have involve men.

Ladies we need to remember to love ourselves first. When we love ourselves we dont have to cater to the nonsense of theses grown ass boys. When you love yourself, you will know that you dont have to use sex to get you love. Ladies if a Real Man loves you, he will not pressure you to having sex or include you in unneccessary drama. Ladies you gotta love ya self so that we can stop this cycle. And also ladies you do not have to dress scandelous or act promiscous so that you can chase after a man, trust me a real worth you while will be sent to you from a higher being. Now its up to you to take the blessing that comes your way or to just let another good guy pass you by because you rather deal with a man that forever makes you cry. Your choice.

Ladies we cannot settle. If you are not happy then do something about it. Maybe its time for us sisters, to look beyond our past and others to blame for our hardships in the present. For example, some women grew up without a father figure in their life, as an inspiring psychologist I know its hard to just let go however you have to forgive them. and when you forgive its not for them its for you. I mean there are soo many women that refuse to have strong relationships because of their relationship with their dad, there are women who are promiscous to get the affection of a man.....It does sadden me to know these factors that make alot of sisters the way they are today, but ladies let it go. Dont go on with ur life feeled with drama that deals with tired ass boys... or dont belittle yourself to a be a thrill for a dude u barely know because thats all you know to do. Love ya self Ma, Seriously!

Lastly my sisters, please conduct yourself as a Woman at all times. The society look at women as sex object and beauty trophies. We are more than that, we are stronger mothers, daughters, sisters, friends, lovers, caregivers, educators and so on.....

If when reading this blog touches a nerve for you, dont look at it as a disrespect or "calling you out" listen closely to what I'm saying. You are more and bigger than what society says. And prove them wrong by loving the higher being and yourself first. I promise you ladies there is a man out there for you, who will appreciate you everyday and treat you like the queen that you are if you let him... but you don't have to change your moral feelings to chance after him...be patient.... he will find you.
One Love

Grades are In!

So this semester my gpa was a 3.575 and cummulative gpa is 3.450. Yay!!! thanks for the prayers and kind words and I am sooo grateful!
B+ intro to forensices
B+ research methods
A- Juvenile delinquency
A Forensic Assessment

Hmmmm not to bad!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

First year of graduate school (Check) Searching for a new job (GRRR)

Thanks to God! School is out for a few months I am sooo excited :D. God is sooo good. When I have all of my grades I will post my progress. Now bigger things.... finding a new job. I have a bachelor of arts degree in Psychology with a minor in religious studies. I seriously need trip the amount of money that I do make at this part time job. Any suggestions? So whats next on the agenda of life
1) get new job
2) save save save money
3) have an awesome birthday
4) go to Las Vegas with the beau
5) Finish my last semester of grad school
6) Possibly new living location? (not too sure about this one)
7) Save Save Save MONEY

Saturday, May 10, 2008

school is almost over

Thank God!!! I am sooooo tired of school right now. I must say this was my toughest sem of my whole college career lol but I am thankful it is done. so next thing on the list is to find a new job and make some more money, keep me in ur prayers. Since I will be done with school I decided that I will be joining a gym. Either Xsport or LA fitness. The S.O. gets a discount at la fitness with his job sooo we shall see.

My hair is getting healthier. I still see some straight pieces but my next trim should really eliminate those :D..... thats it for now but I promise to those who do take the time out to visit my blog spot I will update more frequently in a couple of weeks

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Catch up on life

ughhhhhhhhhhhhh School is soooo crazy right now but I am thankful and blessed.

So..... Michael Kors had a 75% off selected shoes at Roosevelt Field. I purchased two pairs of shoes. a black stilletto pump and creme thong sandles. I love this. the best part was how much I paid for them. the pumps were 98, I paid $25....the sandles were 100+ and I paid $27.. I was so happy. I purchased my mom a pair of flats too for $27, she loved them. It makes me happy to find sales...I am a struggling grad student :D. I have a pic above of the shoes, but online it only showed silver so just imagine these in black ;D

hmmmmm the love life is great, Stephen and I are excellent....

One of my bestfriend Shanna is getting married and I am sooooo excited and happy for her.

All my other bestfriends are my pearls and the family is good as well. I dont know what else to say now...but I will continue to post. I am still learning this site.....

oh yeah, MY BDay is JULY 23Rd its my Golden 23!!! woo hoo I need ideas for it :D

Friday, March 14, 2008

Eco Clothing

Isnt this the cutest baby? :D
I saw some organic tshirts in H&M and I thought it was interesting. I also purchased a peace shirt from forever 21. I like what everyone is trying to do to improve our planet. I hope things change.

Spring is almost here!

I am soooooooooooooooooo excited that Spring is almost here. I have soooo many goals to happen before my bday comes (7/23). I plan to have a new job where I will be working with Children which I adore. I also plan to step my clothes game up too, I saw sooo many dresses that are so appealing. I do not plan to spend an arm and a leg for anything either. but for my bday I do want a pair of Jimmy Choo sandles or pumps lol :D

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Hair blues

So most of the time that I am online it because I am checking out some hair sites, I'm a natural gurl Yeah!!!

Well I had a lovely press for new years eve it was wonderful but the new chick who did my hair, put sooo much damn heat to my head, the worst! Im happy the whole head doesnt suffer from heat damage, thank God it was only a few strands but right now I am using a few products to restore my hair back to health. I am using: aveda damage remedy line and a mixture of olive oil and mizani moisture fuze. my usual stylist recommended the mizani product and I just love aveda. So we shall see what happens.